OUR LAST FIRST

Seniors 2011

I am almost done with my last first semester in high school....
I am about to take my Last Finals in high school
I am about to begin my Last second semester in high school
I will never spend another Christmas here at Apollo High School



As a senior my first semester is coming to an end and I am filled with mixed emotions. I'm excited because all this means I only have one semester left and graduation is just around the corner. Its sad because I feel like I am having to grow up to fast. This is all just Bittersweet.

Carols

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas

Everywhere you go;

Take a look in the five and ten glistening once again

With candy canes and silver lanes aglow.

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas

Toys in every store

But the prettiest sight to see is the holly that will be

On your own front door.

This lovely tune always gets me in the Christmas mood. As of today there are exactly 16 days until Christmas...and it couldn't come fast enough. I love the smell of all the Christmas candies my mom makes and the sound of the fire crackling in the fireplace. Ahh  right after thanksgiving, Christmas is one of my favorite times of year. I just pray that it is a good one this year!



Tis The Season!

Charlie Brown:  Isn't there anyone out there who can tell me what Christmas is all about? 
Linus Van Pelt: Sure, Charlie Brown, I can tell you. Lights, please. 
Linus Van Pelt: "And there were in the same country shepherds abiding in the fields, keeping watch over their flocks by night. And lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the lord shone round about them, and they were so afraid. And the angel said unto them, Fear not, for behold, I bring unto you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people. For unto you this day is born in the City of Bethlehem, a Savior, which is Christ the Lord. And this shall be a sign unto you; you shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes and lying in a manger. And suddenly there was with the angel, a multitude of the heavenly host, praising God, and saying, 'Glory to God in the highest, and on Earth peace, good will toward men'". That's what Christmas is all about, Charlie brown.



Cant wait to spend this Christmas watching my favorite holiday movies. 


MERRY CHRISTMAS CHARLIE BROWN!

A year today

 Oh, take your time, don't live too fast

Troubles will come and they will pass

You'll find a woman and you'll find love

And don't forget that there is a someone up above

And be a simple kind of man

And be something you'll love and understand

Baby be a simple kind of man

Oh, won't you do this for me son if you can?

Then you can

Don't get your lust from the rich man's gold

All that you need now is in your soul

And you can do this, oh baby if you try

All that I want from you my son is to be satisfied

And be a simple kind of man

And be something you'll love and understand

Baby be a simple kind of man

Oh, won't you do this for me son if you can?

If you can

Oh, don't you worry, you'll find yourself

Follow your heart and nothing else

And you can do this, oh baby if you try

All that I want from you my son is to be satisfied

And be a simple kind of man

Be something you'll love and understand

Baby be a simple kind of man

Oh, won't you do this for me son if you can?

So baby be a simple, be a simple man

Oh, won't you do this for me son if you can?

it has been a year today and you are still missed.

Forever in our hearts 

Rest In Peace Danny Boi! 

Forget You

I see you drivin round town with the guy I love
and I’m like…
Forget You!

I guess the change in my pocket
wasn’t enough…
I’m like forget you and forget him too.

I said if I was richer
I’d still be with ya
Now aint that som shh…

Although there’s a pain in my chest
I still wish you the best with a …
Forget You!

I said I’m sorry I can’t afford
a Farri. But that don’t mean I
cant get you there.

Yea…soo FORGET YOU!

Let me hold your crown, babe.

Keep drinking coffee, stare me down across the table

While I look outside

So many things I’d say if only I were able

But I just keep quiet and count the cars that pass by

You’ve got opinions, man

We’re all entitled to ‘em, but I never asked

So let me thank you for your time, and try not to waste anymore of mine

And get out of here fast

I hate to break it to you babe, but I’m not drowning

There’s no one here to save

Who cares if you disagree?

You are not me

Who made you king of anything?

So you dare tell me who to be?

Who died and made you king of anything?

You sound so innocent, all full of good intent

Swear you know best

But you expect me to jump up on board with you

And ride off into your delusional sunset

I’m not the one who’s lost with no direction

But you’ll never see

You’re so busy making maps with my name on them in all caps

You got the talking down, just not the listening

All my life I’ve tried to make everybody happy

While I just hurt and hide

Waiting for someone to tell me it’s my turn to decide

Who cares if you disagree?

You are not me

Who made you king of anything?

So you dare tell me who to be?

Who died and made you king of anything?

Let me hold your crown, babe.

Happiness

Action may not always bring happiness, but there is no happiness without action.

~ Benjamin Disraeli 

 Never give less than your best. For me to truly become happy, I must simply become who I am. 

COUNTDOWN

8 weeks till Christmas....
4 weeks till Thanksgiving...

Im super pumped about this!!

Trick or Treat

THIS IS ABSURD
Since when did everyone get too cool for trick or treating?

I parked my car near Even Steven's gas station and my best friend and I walked to the nearest neighborhood. When we were younger, I could remember trick or treating in the same neighborhood and we had to get out there early if we wanted to get any candy. This year was PATHETIC! The streets were dead.....we maybe saw 10 trick or treaters. What is this world coming to....where we can't dress up and go get free candy.  I think it is rather sad to be honest. I guess the bright side to this was that there was more candy for ME! (:

Fall

Fall brings change
The weather just begins to have a hint of cold air
The leaves become vibrant in rich hues of red, orange, and yellow
The shorts get put away and the sweat shirts get brought out
We can finally wear socks again
Celebrating Halloween and Thanksgiving
Getting prepared for sinus issues with the change in weather
Farmers start harvesting

Fall is filled with happiness and my favorite part is Thanksgiving and spending all that time with my family.

Bucket List

In no particular order..here are at least 69 things I want to accomplish before I die:

1. . Finding and marrying the love of my life
2. fit into my skinny jeans ...lol 
3. make a sufficient amount of money to support myself 
4. to witness at least one St. Louis Cardinal's baseball game
5. Go skydiving ...and not die (:
6. learn how to dance the right way
7. attempt to play tennis
8. hit a homerun 
9. complete a marathon 
10. learn how to wake board
11. become fluent in french 
12. learn at least two songs on a guitar
13. learn to surf 
14. go on a helicopter ride 
15. ride the worlds largest roller coaster 
16. write my own song and have a famous singer perform it
17. Make a difference in someone's life
18. Visit Rome 
19. actually watch the sun set
20. make it on TV
21. meet Skip Schumaker 
22. learn to juggle 
23. Visit Busch Stadium 
24. solve a Rubik's cube 
25. break a world record 
26. dance in the rain 
27. allow myself to make mistakes
28. get a college degree 
29. meet jude law 
30. meet Snooki from the Jersey Shore 
31. lead a parade 
32. get something named after me 
33. throw the first pitch at a major league baseball game 
34. make the front page of the news paper
35. go on a blind date 
36. donate blood
37. get a meaningful tattoo 
38. be in a music video
39. help deliver a baby 
40. earn a million dollars
41. fall in love 
42. visit the SNL studio and see a show live
43. win an award
44. throw a really hard core  party 
45. have my portrait painted
46. go skinny dipping 
47. tell a complete stranger my life story 
48. write a fan letter to my hero 
49. be the boss
50. stay awake for 24 hours with my best friend 
51. make a fool of myself in front of a crowd
52. sleep under the stars
53. to try foreign foods 
54. find a job I will love 
55. overcome the fear of failure
56. buy my own house
57. get in shape
58. attempt to find nemo
59. catch a ball in the stands of a St. Louis Cardinal's game
60. adopt an accent for an entire day 
61. fire a gun 
62. Fast for 24 hours
63. attend Mardi Gras in New Orleans 
64. go see legally blonde on Broadway 
65. catch the bouquet at a wedding 
66. see the northern lights 
67. go to Vegas 
68. ride a motorcycle 
69. marry my best friend.....and i think ill stop here!

Something New

 "Experience is the name every one gives to their mistakes" 
-- Oscar Wilde 

Our parents are so afraid of letting us grow up. They fear the choices we make in life are going to be the wrong ones. Now is when they need to understand that without new experiences we will never fail. Their reasoning is that experiencing new things will lead to mistakes.  In the end this will be the reason for our failure. In ways this contradicts itself, but if you were to think about it....you would agree. 
We learn from our mistakes....so if we never make them then how will we learn?
Trying new things isn't a mistake! It just means we are living life. 

Childhood Phobias

Childhood phobias too many to count....
lightning
thunder
shadows and dark corners
heights and tight spaces....and most of all Clowns!

As I grow older I seem to realize that all the things that used to scare me seem so small. It has to do with understanding. Now I can understand where lightning and thunder comes from....now I know that there isn't always a bad monster in the shadows. The thing is .....I still have uncertainties and fears about tight spaces, heights, and Clowns. That is just apart of my childhood that will stick with me forever. No matter how many clowns I see...you can be sure that I will turn and walk in the other direction. I absolutely hate being in tight spaces from the fear of suffocation. Now heights, that is one thing I think I can handle.

Spring

Spring time is full of laughter and fun. Birds are chirping and flowers are blooming. It is finally warm enough to take off the winter coats. To me, spring time represents freedom and a new beginning. All of the animals are just waking up from a long winter nap. The sun shines longer and the days seem to go on forever. I love spring time. Playing outside till the sun goes down is what I enjoy most. Spring is a rainy and wet season....well this gives me a reason to break out the rain boots. Around this time I, as a senior, would be getting ready for graduation. Excitement is everywhere during this season. Ahhh Spring Time!!! I cant wait until you get here!

Daily Proverb

"The road doesn't tell the traveler what lies ahead."

I don't know what my future holds for me. I might think that I have it all planed out, but really this only brings humor to God. For he is the only one that knows what is going to happen to me. The will of God will never send me, where the grace of God won't protect me. I believe this to be true. I'd like to believe that I am one the road to happiness and success. I guess ill find out when I get there. I'm ready for what ever challenges this road might have for me.  



I Was Born into the Arms of an Imaginary Friend

I was born in the arms of imaginary friends

Free to roam, made a home out of everywhere iv been.

I was made to believe that I would never love somebody else
made a plan, stay the man who can only love himself

Lonely was the song I sang
till the day you came showin me another way
and all that my love can bring.

Half of my heart's got a grip on the situation

Half of my heart takes time...

I know with friends like these, ill never be alone!

Star Gazing

Can we just stare off into the night at the nothingness? Going to watch a lame movie at the drive in

just didn't seem like fun. We stared uninterested at the bright flashing lights on the screen. I will

admit I was completely contempt with just laying there in his arms. That's when he leaned down and whispered,"look up!" I raised my head and saw the beautiful night sky. To be honest I don't remember how the movie ended. We laid there making pictures out of the stars...we were star gazing! One of the most memorable and funnest night iv had in a long time. (:

Something to Live by...

                                               Live louder, Laugh longer!

Lets Go

"I throw my hands up in the air sometimes

Saying AYO
Gotta let go
I wanna celebrate and live my life
Saying AYO
Baby, let's go
'Cause we gon' rock this club
We gon' go all night
We gon' light it up
Like it's dynamite"

- Taio Cruz

Casual life

Casually I walk. I stop. I see.
I observe. I consider. I take it in...the whole picture.
Casually I speak. I listen. I process.
I can tell you are making a point.
Casually I laugh. I smirk. I agree.
What can I say? Im staring at my own reflection....
Arguing with myself
Casually I decide. Today im going to live!

Just the Way You Are ...

"When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change, cause you're amazing just the way you are.
And when you smile the whole world stops and stares for a while, cause you're amazing just the way you are."  Lyrics I would love to live my life by. To have someone there to tell you how much they need you in their life. It's so sad to think that the people we love don't see what we see. It hurts you to hear that your best friend thinks that they aren't good enough. Every time they ask, "Do I look okay?" all you want to do is play them this song and let them hear the lyrics "...you're amazing just the way you are." There is no guarantee that this life will be easy, and sometimes I have to tell myself that I'm amazing just the way I am. No one will be allowed to tell me otherwise. The truth is we are ALL amazing the way we are and it is sad to know that we don't all believe that.

Fortune Cookie Wisdom

"The great joy in life is doing what people say you cannot do."

Something we should all take to heart. To break away from what people limit us to. Prove them wrong....
Proving to them that you are better than what they perceive you to be. This will,with out a doubt, bring joy and excitement to your life. It's funny how a little cookie could bring so much wisdom.

Freedom rides

The day will come when I will get behind the wheel and set out to the unknown. This day will be move-in day for me, to the college of my dreams. I know that, that day is far off from today, but I look forward to it. The new adventures ill have and the friends ill make. Oh my freedom ride!

My Last Blogg

This is It, my last week in high school as a junior. This time next year I will be getting ready to graduate!!!! The days dwindle down and as of my first day here as a freshman I have had senioritis! This is deffinetly not my last blog, but it is my last one as a junior. As of Thursday afternoon I will be starting a new chapter in my life, that I can't wait to begin. Wow an Upper classmen already, its hard to belive but this time flew. I will probly cry today, because today is the last day for our seniors. I love all of you and this is my official shout out. Especially Chelsea, Paige, Stephen, Sam, Lauren, Elizabeth, Jared, Kerrick,Zach and Hayley.

I Smell Summer!

Waking up to the sweet smell of summer is something i look forward to.
Birds chirping
Freshly cut grass
Tanning lotion
Pool water
Bar-b-q
Music blasting
and the Fresh air
All of these mean endless nights of fun that run into the next day. Maybe this year I will find my summer love. Who knows what this summer will hold for me. All I know is that I smell summer and I can't wait for it to begin.

Airplanes

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky be like shooting stars? I could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now! Yeah, I could use a dream or a genie or a wish To go back to a place much simpler than this
Cause after all the partying, the smashin' and crashin'
And all the glips and the glam and the fashion
And all the pandemonium and all the madness
There comes a time where you fade to the blackness
And when you starin' at that phone in your lap
And you hopin' but them people never call you back
But that's just how the story unfolds
You get another hand soon after you fold
And when your plans unravel in the sand
What would you wish for if you had one chance....

Fortune Cookie Advice

A Horizon filled with hope and wishes. But I will never reach that horizon if I stop trying. If at first you succeed, try, try again!
"Failure is not defeat until you stop trying."
-Nuff Said!

Memories of our Seniors

chels!
- My first day of conditioning, my 8th grade year. I felt like I couldn't do it and I was almost ready to quit. You might not remember but you were there pushing me to keep going, so I did. Thanks Chels!
- Calling You Giraffe....G-girl...Rhino
- Cheeta....75%...Possibly
- "That's Our Giraffe!"
- You stealing the Gator and going on a joy ride
- You Being a whole head taller than me!
- That one Large McDonald's cup...on that one Bus ride
- Your Prom Countdown with Hillary last year
- Your Obsession with 3rd boobs....Your Spleen when you had mono...and your Knee!
- You were the only one to help me up the stairs
- You driving the Grocery Getter to practice
- Hillary and you singing Taylor Swift at Coach Boulington's House...and me getting it on video.
- That one practice in the rain...and you got a picture with your BFF Frank.
- Those random Post Cards in your Cubby.
- And the fact that every umpire hates you! haha (:
I'm gonna miss you Chels...Good Luck at Georgetown!

Paige
I'm gonna miss you kiddo...you always had a way of making me laugh!
- Your Awesome I heart Pappy buttons you made last year
- Your amazing hair...and because of that you are known as Curly Fry
- the way you say "Baby!"
- The random and hilarious talks we have in the dugout
- Quoting the Mean Girls all the Time
- Your awesome packed lunches
- the way you say "Some Roast Beef, Some Chicken, A pizza!"
- the Amazingly large box of cookies you brought us
- Your batting gloves and how you wear them till they are deteriorated
- I def. Wont miss the smell of your glove! Gross!
- How you forgot to shave one of your legs
- That ride home from castle and you and your mom talking forever!
- ill miss jenny and Kendal telling you to go warm up because you were annoying them
- your obsession with red heads
- how in love you are with Gerald Butler
- That deck of cards you got at lacy's christmas part haha :)
- your mom always wanting to take random pictures of you
- i know this has nothing to do with softball...but you and amber always acting like Haley's body guards
good luck at EU I'm gonna miss our laughs!

laughter

Why is it that the most stupidest things make us laugh the most. It could be a simple youtube video of someone trying to sing a song, and doing it terribly, or it could be someone just talking to themselves. I love to laugh and I do it often. Say a word weird and I will giggle...make a weird face and I will chuckle...Be as random as possible and I will laugh hysterically. Laughter always make me feel better for a little while.It allows me to forget about the world.

Emily Dickinson

WITH A FLOWER

I hide myself within my flower,


That wearing on your breast,

You, unsuspecting, wear me too --

And angels know the rest.



I hide myself within my flower,

That, fading from your vase,

You, unsuspecting, feel for me

Almost a loneliness.

Rage!

Why do I freaking let you get to me. You do all the WRONG things and yet I am still friends with you. You say all the wrong things and yet I am still friends with you. You could be a complete jerk and at the end of the day I will blow it off like it was no big deal. We are supposed to be friends gosh dang it! Sometimes I wonder if you can hear what you are saying. Because I'm almost positive that if you did you would hate yourself. Grow up dude! and learn to respect a girl. wow boys are so overrated....deep down I wish I could punch you in the throat.On the downside, that would solve nothing, because in the end you will still be the jerk and I will still be your friend. I hope that one day I stop letting people walk all over me.

KOM training day!

" Failure is NOT an Option for MY freshmen!"
This is a phrase we used throughout the day. Training day this year was fun. We started out sitting at our tables with our group. This year I was selected to be on the KOM council, so I had the privilege to select the members in my group. So far I am happy with my selection. We have each agreed that we are going to make this Kick off day a good one. We have promised to be as excited and understanding as possible. I can't wait to see what freshmen we are assigned and the great things we will be able to do for them. I have high hopes that next year will be a good one. No matter what we will proudly say, "Failure is NOT an Option for MY freshmen!"

GLEEEEEEEEE!

O My Gosh I'm so excited. the new season of Glee is coming back to T.V.
I can't wait for these fun filled episodes of drama, dancing, and singing.I think Will Schuester, the head of the Glee club, is finally gonna make his move on Emma Pillsbury, the school guidance Councilor. Who knows what kind of music they will bring to this season. I can't wait!

Problems....yayy

Problems are never a good thing. These days I seem to have too many. Prom is just around the corner, no joke like 4 days away. I am stressed to the max. The good thing is that my dress came in over spring break and it FITS! My date got his bow tie and it is awesome looking. So I think to myself, alright things are going good. Now we need plans on what we are doing before......um we both have no idea. Then yesterday he tells me that he has to work prom night!! Are you serious? okay well he goes in to ask off and they straight told him no. wow...really? So the best he could do was get off at 4. So this Saturday is going to be a BAM BAM BAM day. I wont have a moment to rest. From the time I wake up till we get where we are supposed to be I will be rushing. Maybe I should wake up earlier......ummm NOT! haha ill just go with the flow and see where things end up. I just know that this will be a night I will never forget and I'm not gonna let a little problem get in the way.

Inspiration through her words

Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus:]
We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen and we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
when you need to find the strength
It's your faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time

check list

Bow tie....check
dress....check
shoes....check
flowers....check
hairstyle...check
friends...check
good times....check
loud music....check
awesome dance moves...CHECK
hot date....check
plans....almost check
appointments made.....check
perfect attitude....check
ready for the time of our lives.....check
tickets...........check
yellow submarine....check
camera...check
yeppp im ready to make some memories
PROM 10'

Things that BUG ME!

Sometimes when I get mad, a way of making my self feel better is to tell someone else what is making me so mad. So here are some things that really make me mad or just plain annoys me......
-when people smack their gum
-boys who have really long hair
-girls who have long hair but don't wash it.
-teachers who decide they give up on you
-people who love the sound of their own voice
-people who chomp and smack when they are eating
-when girls wear socks with flip flops
-when a girl fixes their hair really good and then wears boy clothes
-guys that wear girl clothes
-guys that wear makeup
-when couples decided they need to make out in the middle of the hallway
-when i get an apple and it is soft
-when random people decide that they need to stare at you for no reason
-when someone acts like they know everything, when they clearly don't
-teachers who are complete Hypocrites
-lazy people
-drivers who don't use their blinkers
-white people who try to be black
-girls that love to be loud ALL THE TIME!
-people that drag their feet
-guys that think it is funny to punch you
-when i have to repeat myself more than twice
-hot guys with ugly girlfriends
-stupid drivers
-people who feel the need to talk about you when you are 5 feet away
-idiots
-when my brother leaves his stuff out on the sink
-ppl tht dnt spl out hol wrds!!!
-boys that wear too much cologne
- AND when people ignore me.....randomly with no explanation
YEPPP...im sure there are more (:

Forgiveness

It was getting dark and we were asked to take a piece of paper and write a letter to anyone we chose. We were supposed to write to them telling how sorry we were or that we forgive them for whatever it was that they might of done. I decided to write mine to many people. They told us that these letters would not be read by anyone but ourselves so we could write what ever we needed to. In the end we would all gather together and burn the letters. This was supposed to be a way to destress us and to possibly lift certain burdens off our shoulders. As the letters burned we would say a small prayer, asking God for his forgiveness.

So i began to write to all those I had hurt in my life, most importantly my parents. My heart began racing and my hands quivering. I didn't know how to put my thoughts in words, let alone down on this piece of paper. The lights were dimmed and the room was silent. At certain corners i would hear others that were writing their letters began crying. That is when all emotions ran through me. I realized that these kids were taking this so seriously, so I dug deep inside and wrote what ever popped into my head.

Over half of the paper was me yelling at all those who hurt me. I didn't know that this was going to touch my heart the way it did. I was able to put words on this paper that i would never in my life be brave enough to say to that person. All i know is that, that night i became closer to God. With every tear i shed while writing that letter was for ever person that i hurt, or who has caused pain on me.

In the end when i was looking over my letter i realised that now the things i was so mad about, didn't seem like such a big deal. I forgave and know i was forgiven.

red dress

There you hang on the back of my closet door, still in the bag. Your bright hue of vibrant red shines through like the sun peaking out behind the clouds. You sit there and taunt me. You are only a size 4, that of which only a few days ago I could fit into. This weekend I plan on making you fit. No matter what I have to do you will fit. You are not the best thing I have ever seen, but you are pretty. I plan to wear you on May 1st 2010. For one night, and one night only. I hope you are ready, because this night will hopefully be a night that I never forget.

The Art of Chaos

Chaos in the world brings uneasiness, but it also allows the opportunity for creativity and growth.Our real discoveries come from chaos, from going to the place that looks wrong and stupid and foolish. We only consider this world chaotic because it is changing faster than we are. It produces confusion in our minds, and mixed emotions in our hearts. We don't know what to believe anymore. We have thoughts of total randomness, which is consistent in chaos; it has a negative consistency which makes it completely predictable. So is everything really chaotic or are we all just a little nutzz?!

My goals

Goals are what we should always set for our self...Goals and Standards.
My goal for this year is to just have the time of my life.
I want to hit a home run, fall in love, make good grades, and good choices.
As most people would notice, the goals i set for myself are all short term. It is plain and simple,I'm just a kid. Tis true that in about 3 months I will be a full on Senior in high school, but right now i am still at that point where I'm just trying to live care free. I plan on having fun with every aspect of my life, whether it have to do with school, sports, or even relationships. I guess what I'm saying is that I'm not ready to grow up, and i don't think that I ever will be. Right now I plan to keep my Goals simple and my Standards low. In the long run this might not be the smartest idea, but honestly I like how it is going so far. Never mess with a good thing! (:

Friends

Some people make your laugh a little louder, your smile a little brighter, and your life a little better. These people i call my friends. A brunette and a blonde with an inseperable bond. Me and my girls are the best, honestly I wouldnt settle for anything less. I dont expect any of them to be faultless, because I only hope they accept mine.

Summer!!!

All I need is a warm sandy beach to sink my toes into, a fairly long beach towel, tanning lotion, a cute bathing suit, my sunglasses, some music, and my bestfriend. Sitting there under the sun, sharing laughs and making memories.
Wearing our Tank tops and flip flops
Blue skies, Hot guys
Late nights,Water fights
Bathing suits, popsicle fruits
Sleeping in and sneaking out
It's Party time, lets go schools out!
I just can't wait for summer 2010!

Rain

There are those certain days when all you want to do is have fun. To me fun can be found in almost any activity. As long as you are willing to make it fun. Almost like saying look at the glass as half full instead of half empty. Optimism is the key. A day when the clouds where blacker than coal and the wind with its suttle bite, we decided to go play some softball. Our coach was reluctant, but we persuaded him that it could be done. The rain began to hit our faces making it hard to see. Our coach would repetitively ask us if we wanted to quite. In all honesty playing softball in the rain is the funnest thing I have done with my teammates all year. We slid in the mud and basically took our misfortune and made it a day to remember.

Weekend(:

A time that consisted of
-Corn hole games
-Abnormal looking hamburgers
-Kerrick's awesome Popsicles
-An Intense UK game
-Bon Fires
-Rain
-Oreos being thrown
-"That's what she said" jokes
-Random Songs on Brandon's Ipod
-The car alarm going off and not being able to stop it!(haha)
- Bod trying to jump over the fire
-Good talks with my Best friend
-Making fun of my Kid-O's( kroger brand Oreos)
-And making memories that will last forever!
In all i love my friends!!!

RIP Lauren June Girten

It isnt fair that God had to take you from us. It isn't fair that you didnt get a chance at a longer life."God saw you were getting tired, and a cure was not meant to be, So he put his arms around you and whispered "come with me" With tearful eyes we watched you, as we saw you pass away. And although we love you deeply, we could not make you stay; Your golden heart stopped beating, hard working hands at rest- God broke our hearts to prove to us He only takes the best."
I saw you today, Lauren. You looked so beautiful and peaceful, just like you were sleeping. It was hard to walk past all of your softball things and not cry. You were just a normal kid, and then you were struck by cancer. You held on for so long, and because of that you are like a hero to me. I never really spoke that many words to you, but the fact that i knew you and was close to some of your family is really heart breaking. I know now that you are in a better place and are pain free. You are were you belong, in the arms of God. Rest In Peace Lauren, you will be missed.

Without a Voice

Without you I am no one.
Without you I feel disabled.
You make me who I am.
I wish I could find you again.

I look out and all I want to do is scream and shout at the top of my lounges.
Without you I can not express myself.
You give me purpose.
You give me life.
In moments of silence all I want to do is sing.
A life without music is like a child without happiness.
I wish I could fine you again.

Without you I can not laugh.
Without you I am forever lost.
I wish I could fine you again.
MY VOICE, I LOVE YOU

The Dead Poet's Society

Carpe Diem, seize the day!
I loved this movie.Every word that was spoken was pure genius. The teacher actually cared about his students, and went out of his way to show them what poetry was really about. "O, Captain, My Captain" this is what the students would say when they addressed their teacher Mr. Keating. He taught them to look at the world in a new way. Mr. Keating would always go beyond what the school wanted him to do.

He introduced something so special to these group of boys. The dead poet's society allowed that group of guys to bond and to feel poetry flow through them like blood in their veins. The end of this movie sends chills up my spine, the way the class showed how much they loved their teacher. To show him that they knew it wasn't his fault. To show Mr. Keating that he meant something to them.
Carpe Diem, Seize the day!

Dr.Seuss

-"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those
who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"

-"Today you are you, that is truer than true.
there is no one alive who is youer than you."

-"Don't cry because it is over, smile
because it happened."

-"I like nonsense, it wakes up the brain cells.
Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living,
It's a way of looking at life through the wrong end
of a telescope. Which is what I do, And that enables
you to laugh at life's realities."

-"I meant what I said, and I said what I meant.
An elephant's faithful, one hundred percent"

-"Unless someone like you cares a whole awful
lot, nothing is going to get better. It's not."

Softball Season

Finally, i get to start playing the sport i love the most.
It's like a drug just to be able to put on my uniform and step onto that field.
This year, we had some unfortunate things happen. Many people were beginning to get hurt, and some very ill. It really made me feel unsure about how well we will do this year, when we got the news that our #1 short-stop Chelsea had mono, and that she would not be able to practice with us until spring break. My jaw literally dropped when we got that news. Don't get me wrong, our other senior does a good job at trying to lead us. So I'm just going to keep telling myself:
"Somewhere behind the athlete you've become and the hours of practice and the coaches who have pushed you is a little girl who fell in love with the game and never looked back... play for her."
Mia Hamm
All i can do is pray, pray that we are able to come out of this season victorious!
it is all for the love of the game! <3

I miss youu

The day was January 5th, 2010....a.k.a. the worst day of the year thus far. This was the day you packed up all your things and went to base training, in Mississippi. At first, i was scared that i wouldn't get to see you again, but before you left our conversation was filled with promises of letters and phone calls. The thing is i wouldn't get any of these until march.
Believe it or not, i counted down and now that march is almost here it brings tears to my eyes. Every night i thought about you. i would say to myself, does he still feel the same way? I wondered if you were even the same guy I met 3 years ago.
Even though it will be September before i get to see you again, just the thought of hearing your voice gives me the chills. So every night i will be eagerly waiting by the phone, just waiting to hear you say I love you one more time.

INFATUATION

All of these me are gorgeous
David Beckham

Channing Tatum

Jude Law

Chris Pine

My celeberty crushess (: YUMM

OH THE PLACES YOU'LL GO!

"Congratulations!

Today is your day,

You're off to Great Places!

You're off and away!

You hav brains in your head.

You have feet in your shoes.

You can steer yourself

any direction you choose.

You're on your own. And you know what you know.

And YOU are the guy who'll decide where to go.

You'll look up and down streets. Look 'em over with care.

About some you will say, "i dont choose to go there. "

With your head full of brains, and your shoes full of feet,

you're too smart to go down any not-so-good street.

And you may not find any

you'll want to go down.

In that case, of course,

you'll head straight out of town.

It's opener there

in the wide open air.

Out there things can happen

and frequently do

to people as brainy

and footsy as you.

And when things start to happen,

dont worry. Don't stew.

Just go right along.

You'll start happening too.

OH!

THE PLACES YOU'LL GO!"

Mirror Mirror On the Wall

There you are across the room, a reflection I constantly try to avoid.

Mirror, Mirror on the wall you show me who I really am.

I look up and see, automatically

I'm disgusted

Why do we judge our self so harshly?

I see my face, so blemished with freckles.

My eyes too close, my nose to wide, and my forehead to long.

So fed up with this outward appearance, I begin to look beneath my skin.

Mirror, mirror on the wall show me who I really am.

Now when I look up, I see determination.

I see a soul and eyes full of love.

NO longer will I compare myself to the "image"

Now when I look in the mirror, I see nothing but beauty, because I know this is how the Good Lord made me.

Mirror, Mirror on the wall, thank you for showing me who I really am.

Essentail Question: Poe who is to say what is normal?

I think that I am what most people would consider weird, or different. The thing is; what gives them the right to say what is normal? If you think about it, maybe I am the only normal one. Sometimes we look at something that is different as being weird, just because it is not what we are used to. That does not mean it isn't normal. I would love to meet the person who set the standards for being normal! Maybe, Just maybe they were a little weird, so Maybe they don't know what normal is.
hmmm.....i guess we will never know!

Dear Love

Dear Hank,

You have been there for me from the beginning. Heck we were baptized together. You are my rock. Every time i have a problem i know who i can turn to. Over these last 3 or 4 years we have gotten really close. And i wouldn't trade all the things we been through for the world. i was there to hold you when you wanted to cry about boys, and like wise to you. You always gave me a shoulder to lean on. i will never be able to thank you enough.

This past summer we spent every day together. I was at your house almost everyday. It was an escape i had away from my home life, and the people who stressed me out. We would talk about every thing and anything. That was the summer we became sisters. Haley i love you my best friend, and I'm glad i can be myself with you! All i have to say is " I LOVE YOU!....why?....BECAUSE YOU LET ME BE MYSELF!" Hankie thank you for being my best friend!

An Adventure gone wrong

Monday i came to school and all i could think about was all this snow we were supposed to be getting. 3:15 rolled around and the announcements came on and basically told us that we needed to get home as soon as we could because the snow was on its way and they wanted us all off the roads and safe. That night i went to bed and when i woke up i ran to my window and saw a brand new blanket of white fluffiness. The first thing i did was call up my friend Haley. She is my best friend and we are with each other constantly, i consider her house to be my second home. Its like my home away from home. i always feel comfortable to be myself around her. So the first snow day we had i got myself over to her house and we set out on an adventure. So, we set out for the unknown. We walked to the very back of their property and decided to go into the woods. We crossed maybe 20 small lakes and several patches of thorns. We climbed over trees that had fallen from previous storms. We just let our imagination sore. We called the fallen trees mountains and the small streams oceans. We were gone for a good 4 hours just exploring the woods behind her house. Then we decided that it was getting too cold and we needed to go back. So i went to climb over the biggest Mountain we had seen all day. This mountain had fallen over a large body of frozen water. The thing is the ice on top of the water wasn't as thick as i had thought. I took one step and the ice broke in several places. So i stood on a small branch and tried to balance myself so i could get to the tree. Then out of nowhere my feet fly from out beneath me. i went straight through the frozen water and could not move. My friend Haley just stood there and laughed at me. i picked myself up on to find that i had dropped my camera on the water. That was the day i lost all my memories. i was just astonished that it had happened to me. Still shocked i began to cry, after that i basically i ran back to her house because we were both fed up with all this snow and coldness. This was my Adventure that went wrong. :(

Temptations

How do you do it?

You instill fear in me!

You point me in directions I wish not to travel.

Temptation

How evil you are.

I see you everyday

Your face

My heart

You feed on my emotions

How do you do it?

You make it all look so easy

Temptation

leave my soul alone

I know now how you work!

and never shall i confide in you again

Temptation

Driving

Ok so i finally got my license....yayy!
I've spent the past 180 days worrying about this day. How will i do? All i could think about was what if i fail this test? The week before i had been telling everyone that i was going to get it. Wow, it would of been embarrassing if i walked back into school and didn't have that orange sticker.
So at 12:00pm my mom checked me out of school....i got into the car and drove to the testing sight. i was a whole 30 minutes early. The guy sits down in the passenger seat and i swear to you he is sweating more than me. I started pulling off, and before i know it the test was over and i could See my mom passing back and forth. I pulled the car over and i let out a sigh of relief when he handed me back my permit with the orange sticker on it. As soon as i walked into school the biggest smile ever fell across my face, and it wouldn't go away. I don't know why i was so excited, but for some reason it made me feel more mature.

YAYY :)

Nicholas Sparks

"If conversation was the lyrics, laughter was the music, making time spent together a melody that could be replayed over and over without getting stale."

"There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but i've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me this has always been enough."

(The Notebook)

"So it's not gonna be easy. It's going to be really hard; we're gonna have to work at this everyday, but i wan to do that because i want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me.....everday."

(The Notebook)

"I finally understood what true love meant...love meant that you care for another person's happiness more than your own, no matter how painful the choices you face might be."

(Dear John)

"It's possible to go on, no matter how impossible it seems, and that in time, the grief ... lessens. It may not go away completely, but after a while it's not so overwhelming."

(Dear John)

"Without suffering, there'd be no compassion."

(A Walk to Remember)

"Without you in my arms, i feel an emptiness in my soul. I find myself searching the crowds for your face- i know it's an impossibility, but i cannot help myself."

(Message in a Bottle)

"Sometimes you have to be apart from people you love, but that doesn't make you love them any less. Sometimes you love them more."

(The Last Song)

Sometimes I sit and wonder how could someone know so much about love and life? I would give anything to meet this man.